Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Wreck Of The Edmund Fitzgerald



On this day in 1975, The SS Edmund Fitzgerald sank in Lake Superior, taking all 29 aboard to the bottom, never to see the light of day again. Gordon Lightfoot immortalized the sinking in his song The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald. His words are accurate and the story and melody haunt the soul. For this is not the story of one wreck, but of all wrecks, of all men swallowed by the seas since the beginning of time.

The legend lives on from the Chippewa on down
Of the big lake they call Gitche Gumee
The lake, it is said, never gives up her dead
When the skies of November turn gloomy.

With a load of iron ore - 26,000 tons more
Than the Edmund Fitzgerald weighed empty
That good ship and true was a bone to be chewed
When the gales of November came early.

The ship was the pride of the American side
Coming back from some mill in Wisconson
As the big freighters go it was bigger than most
With a crew and the Captain well seasoned.


In the morning sun, the men boarded in bright innocence. Burned out from Watergate, talk was simple and carefree. A smile was had with talk of catching a young girl's eye, another groaned of a marriage outlasting his heart, others talked of plans to get away and relax at last.


Concluding some terms with a couple of steel firms
When they left fully loaded for Cleveland
And later that night when the ships bell rang
Could it be the North Wind they'd been feeling.

The wind in the wires made a tattletale sound
And a wave broke over the railing
And every man knew, as the Captain did, too,
T'was the witch of November come stealing.

The dawn came late and the breakfast had to wait
When the gales of November came slashing
When afternoon came it was freezing rain
In the face of a hurricane West Wind


For the first 13 years of her life, the Fitzgerald was the largest on the lakes. Over 15,000 attended its launch yet she refused the sea. For over half an hour, the shipyard crew struggled to free her from the keel blocks. When she did enter the water, she crashed violently into a dock.


When supper time came the old cook came on deck
Saying fellows it's too rough to feed ya
At 7PM a main hatchway caved in
He said fellas it's been good to know ya.

The Captain wired in he had water coming in
And the good ship and crew was in peril
And later that night when his lights went out of sight
Came the wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald.

Does anyone know where the love of God goes
When the words turn the minutes to hours
The searchers all say they'd have made Whitefish Bay
If they'd fifteen more miles behind her.


When the winter gale came, waves were as high as 35 feet. The Fitzgerald's radar got knocked out and she was blinded by heavy snow. She reported a minor list. The Captain reported the situation as "one of the worst seas I've ever been in."


They might have split up or they might have capsized
They may have broke deep and took water
And all that remains is the faces and the names
Of the wives and the sons and the daughters.

Lake Huron rolls, Superior sings
In the ruins of her ice water mansion
Old Michigan steams like a young man's dreams,
The islands and bays are for sportsmen.

And farther below Lake Ontario
Takes in what Lake Erie can send her
And the iron boats go as the mariners all know
With the gales of November remembered.


"We're holding our own". Scrambling men, most having known this fear before, never sent a distress signal. But the icy grip of the seas was upon them and before their death they stood as men who knew their fate - living yet dead. A time for final prayers or screams.


In a musty old hall in Detroit they prayed
In the Maritime Sailors' Cathedral
The church bell chimed, 'til it rang 29 times
For each man on the Edmund Fitzgerald.

The legend lives on from the Chippewa on down
Of the big lake they call Gitche Gumee
Superior, they say, never gives up her dead
When the gales of November come early.


List of the dead:
Armagost, Michael E. Third Mate 37
Beetcher, Fred J. Porter 56
Bentsen, Thomas D. Oiler 23 St.
Bindon, Edward F. First Assistant Engineer 47
Borgeson, Thomas D. Maintenance Man 41
Champeau, Oliver J. Third Assistant Engineer 41
Church, Nolan S. Porter 55
Cundy, Ransom E. Watchman 53
Edwards, Thomas E. Second Assistant Engineer 50
Haskell, Russell G. Second Assistant Engineer 40
Holl, George J. Chief Engineer 60
Hudson, Bruce L. Deck Hand 22
Kalmon, Allen G. Second Cook 43
Kohler, Tim F. Deck Hand 45
MacLellan, Gordon F. Wiper 30
Mazes, Joseph W. Special Maintenance Man 59
McCarthy, John H. First Mate 62
McSorley, Ernest M. Captain 63
O'Brien, Eugene W. Wheelsman 50
Peckol, Karl A. Watchman 20
Poviach, John J. Wheelsman 59
Pratt, James A. Second Mate 44
Rafferty, Robert C. Steward 62
Rippa, Paul M. Deck Hand 22
Simmons, John D. Wheelsman 62
Spengler, William J. Watchman 59
Thomas, Mark A. Deck Hand 21
Walton, Ralph G. Oiler 58
Weiss, David E. Cadet 22
Wilhelm, Blaine H. Oiler 52

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Want the Magic Bus to World Paradise? You Ca-an't Have It!

I know what's chic. I know what sells. I know what makes the crowd cheer in holy confirmation. You want a Political Answer. You want a Military Answer. You want an Economic Answer. You want an Answer To The World!

You ca-an't have it!

You want a leader you can trust and believe in? You ca-an't have it!

Guess you yourself will have to
be someone you can believe in



You want a world untouched by pollution? You ca-an't have it!

Guess you will have to settle for not polluting your own soul



You want honest CEO's not given over to greed? You ca-an't have it!

Guess you'll just have to learn not to be greedy yourself



You want a world without war? You ca-an't have it!

Guess you'll just have find your own inner peace



You want worldwide economic prosperity? You ca-an't have it!

Guess you'll have to learn to trust
something other than money



You want conservatives to go back under their rocks? You ca-an't have it!

Guess you'll just have to remove
the hypocrisy from your own life



You want paradise on earth? You ca-an't have it!

But you can still have the paradise of a good heart.



Actually, you can have it. We can have all these things. And will. One soul at a time.

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Saturday, November 7, 2009

Yes, Democracy Has Failed Before - In England!

Oliver Cromwell, ass kicker


On Tuesday, 30 January 1649, Charles I was beheaded. England stood kingless and declared a republic ruled by parliament. Yippeeee!! Power to the people! The world is fixed!

Well, sorta. See, no cure can be implemented for assholes. (Since you say you don't believe in love, that is)

The man who led to the king's overthrow was Oliver Cromwell, a man who thought the idea of England without a king was "unthinkable" and sought merely to remedy the king's arbitrary rule of injustice. Ever hear of a guy who bankrupts his country with ambitious foreign invasions, squeezes the poor to the brink of disaster and grants favors based upon pure cronyism? England had its Charles I and we had our George II. See, man, it ain't the system, it's the people.

Cromwell, though a Puritanical maniac, was a true patriot who put his country first. The king's death necessary only as a last resort as he held out until the end in defiance of meaningful reform. Charles had forced Cromwell into open revolt and civil war and that left Cromwell in control of the military - and therefore the country. And though Cromwell could have very well made himself king, he handed power over to parliament to create a just and fair England at last, one that represented the people.

People not ready for the responsibility of citizenship.

I need a king to do my thinking!


Parliament turned corrupt as any king, self-dealing and self-serving in wholesale whoring. That again forced Cromwell from his country estate, to appear before them and deliver this oh-so-wicked tongue lashing:

...And I did think it to be my business rather to see the utmost issue, and what God would produce by you, than unseasonably to intermeddle with you. . . but you're such assholes I can't trust you to do anything!

"I will tell you somewhat, which, if it be not news to you, I wish you had taken very serious consideration of fucking up the country. If it be news, I wish I had acquainted you with it sooner you morons. And yet, if any man will ask me why I did not, the reason is, because I did make it my business to give you no interruption. Don't make me stop this car!

There be some trees that will not grow under the shadow of other trees; there be some that choose to thrive under the shadow of other trees i.e you're a bunch of shady bastards. I will tell you what hath thriven (your fucking greed), I will not say what you have cherished under your shadow (again, your fucking greed); that were too hard. Instead of peace and settlement we get Iraq and Afghanistan, instead of mercy and truth being brought together, and righteousness and peace kissing each other as opposed to kissing Republican's asses, by your reconciling the honest people of these nations, and settling the woeful tea party distempers that are amongst us, weeds and nettles, briars and thorns, have thriven under your shadow may no-bid contracts live forever.

Dissettlement and division, discontent and dissatisfaction, together with real dangers to the whole State, have been more multiplied within these five months of your sitting, than in some years before just couldn't wait to stick your hand in the cookie jar, could you. Foundations have also been laid for the future renewing of the troubles of these nations, by all the enemies of them abroad and at home with your fake ass "reform" that carries only political victories but popular burdens. Let not these words seem too sharp but I hope they sting like a bitch, for they are true as any mathematical demonstrations are, or can be...during your sittings but if I could I'd call you a bunch traitorous, no-good, lying bastards


More British heroes


Cromwell used his military backing to dissolve parliament and he ruled as "Lord Protector" for five years to initiate the reforms he deemed necessary. After his death, weak-kneed Englanders put Charles II on the throne and returned to a monarchy in order to get their ass kicked by America later on.

But America has given herself over to economic tyranny. Human weakness reigns supreme once more - leaving only us to rescue us. Our destiny lays within our hearts - and nowhere else.

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Now back to our regular programming of exquisite pain:

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Autumn Solace in the Japans (Meeting Old Friends)


The seas have been stormy lately, reflecting darkly black clouds moving in from the horizon. So as I have done in the past, I sought solace in the Japans, the land of dreams. The year is in its twilight as was the day I visited. I met with old friends and sat for a time among them, together we let the sun set upon us yet never speaking of the vanishing light or the meaninglessness of time.

We mused on the death poem of Yabu:


"What are clouds,
"but an excuse for the sky?
"What is life,
"but an escape from death?"

As we did this, we came to realize the infinity of a single leaf, forever beyond all human understanding - and rejoiced.

Sunlight seeps through an awning of branches as we enter



A few branches still cling to the light



On the road to meet Kanbei!



Kanbei is rich in thought and imagination.
His roots run very deep.
Even the best and brightest come to him for counsel.



Kanbei Drinks from tranquil waters



Goroda is steady and unambitious.
Once you win him over, you need never doubt his loyalty.
He seeks a consistant excellence in all his pursuits.



A study in light and dark as we travel.



Kimiko is young and simple.
She serves herself by serving others.
Above all else, she seeks usefulness.



We descend these steps to meet a special friend
whose light shines even in the dark.



Subaro! Subaro is one of truth and openness.
In him is no politic and no trickery.
His motives are pure and true.



I pause in my reflections.
Swirling colors of confusion, distorting reality.



Hidetora is a soul of vast experience.
He's survived wars, betrayals and treachery.
Yet in all those times, he never lost himself.



Through shadows we must sometimes pass
to reach the light again.



Omi always brings a smile, so eager and full of life.
You watch his explorations as a proud father.
We anxiously await his destiny - as does he!



The path to a warlord!



Takeda is a proud and strong warrior.
Out of the darkness, he seeks to touch the sky.
He stands as a mountain in the gardens.



A pathway of water. How far does it stretch?
Many such as these fed the ancient castles and mansions.
Today, it leads us to royalty as well.



The legendary Lady Gracia Hosokawa.
Her grace and purity of beauty stand in fearless display.
Through her very vulnerablity, she is strongest of all.



Later, I meditated in the Zen Rock garden.
The sun too making its final pass through.



In parting I see two friends, different yet the same.
Later, they swam off across the pond, never separating.
They share a timeless treasure.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

"Dear World", A Letter From God


Dear World,

I never said:

to put poison in your air, land and water



money was a necessary concept



to believe in religion



to invent Republicans



dreams are unimportant



not to pass HR676 and provide unconditional care



that Harry wasn't an idiot



All I've said - all I've ever said - is "Love"




Monday, November 2, 2009

A Small Smile at the Shelter Today


Normally, I don't let my feelings show around here. Too many people with too much bullshit on their minds looking to fuck things up. But even in the world I live in are Moments of Mercy and I was in one, settled halfway across the break room divan, sprawled out yet completely within myself.

A smile born of fertile ground sprouted upon my face. Didn't know why, didn't care. Sometimes an old memory can do it or sometimes like now, the flower just sprouts. It felt really good. I've learned to accept these treasures as they come.

Who was I? I was Newman in the Hustler with my shit eating grin, handing Minnesota Fats the first loss in his life. I was a carefree farm boy in a spring field, watching butterflies go by on a lazy summer day. Most of all, I was moi.

Chances were somebody was going to fuck with me being so openly content. Couldn't care less. But Elena stepped up to the plate regardless.

Elena is a "fixer". She either wants to fix you or somehow someway take credit for happiness any time she sees sees it. I hate fixers.

"Harry, look at you! You look so happy over there! Somethin' good happened to you, didn't it? Come on, tell us what it was!"

Yes, she annoys me this much


My eyes were closed but I clearly felt the guns leveled at me and by the mere sound of her voice knew she had an "I-told-you-so" torpedo written all over face, ready to launch at the slightest hint of an opening.

So I leisurely opened my eyelids and in my own time, my eyes met hers, and explained to her with the greatest satisfaction possible: "Gas."

My arrow hit a bulls eye.

Her face turned all ten ways to Sunday, like I'd just stomped on her foot wearing her proud new shiny shoes. "You just gotta make a joke of everything, don't you!" She was backing out of the room barking, seeking to hide the wound. "You just keep on jokin' an' see where it gets you! Lord, you the most stubborn man in the universe!"

She may have kept on barking and spewing venom as she went on down the hallway. I didn't notice, didn't care. I just closed my eyes back again, only this time my smile a little wider.


I like the way your sparkling earrings lay
against your skin so brown

Sunday, November 1, 2009

The Curious Case Of Lt. James O'Neal



Honor. Duty. Commitment. Those are words the military likes to throw around - have to if you're going to kill people in the name of justice. But like everything else, it's just a respectable facade for dirty deeds. We think God is just really dumb, I suppose. But it's half statements like "Honor. Duty. Commitment." that really crack me up. Commitment is a double-edged sword when used for the wrong purposes.

But hell, you already knew we thought we could lie our way into heaven.

Lt. James O'Neal was accused of military theft, the alleged objects matter not. What does matter is the good lieutenant was not a thief, had no desire to be nor would ever want to be. But when one has a facade to protect, cases like this are pure gold: show your "integrity" here and thusly imply it everywhere - and in every war. Who's to know the difference?

But the lieutenant in question did have another pathology. You see, I knew him before his case came down and I knew him a tortured soul. He too had an "indispensable" facade to protect, one he never spoke of but one noticed by me. In the time I knew James, he'd had three major relationships. He'd woo her for months, bragging to everyone who he'd met and how fantastic she was, you couldn't wipe the smile off his face! Heck, I'm smiling now just remembering his pure elated childlike joy.

Crimes of the heart are the worst of all to bear


Then a few weeks after he'd firmly established his relationship, he'd cheat on her - and keep cheating on her until she found out and left. Bereft does not even begin to describe James in the aftermath. He wouldn't joke or participate in card games (which is a bigger deal than it sounds), he'd just lie on his bunk like a dead body. Others teased him as lovelorn, or joked about him needing "a little on the side" but it wasn't like that at all. It was far, far, worse.

I can't say how many times James had done this, maybe his whole freaking life for all I know - God help him. But he had this certain pathology to build and then destroy. First pulled one way, then the other. Jesus, scares the hell out of me just to think about it, to think you'd know everything you built would be crushed by your own hand...

Like a said, a tortured soul in the purest sense.

So when James was the guard on duty and accused of the theft, he was hooked up to a lie detector, and after the usual test questions, they asked him straight out if he was guilty. Bear in mind, this was right after his latest break up and he got worse each time it happened, sinking so low I feared for his life. But all he heard was the word "guilty" and replied in the affirmative. His response, in fact, registered so "true" the testers thought the machine malfunctioning and repeated it to him.

Eh, don't really want the truth this time.


The military investigators were delighted with such an easy scalp, seeing no need to dig any deeper, not wanting to imperil their paychecks and good standing. But to me, the first question in any event is to ask why it happens - how else can we heal and learn from it? In this case, it was a "waste of time". I pleaded with James to understand what was happening, his very life in danger. He told me he knew that - but I don't think he was referring to the theft charges but rather the dreams he'd destroyed over the years. That far away look in his eyes, I'll never forget. It gives me tears to even remember his piercing sorrow.

Tricky thing, guilt. How it spills over into the innocent parts too, ruining the watered land a well as the dry. I never could get James to confess his true crimes, so I guess he felt unable to claim innocence even when deserved. I remember reading about the Russian revolution of 1917, how Lenin had corrupted the people with a cry of "loot the looters", knowing their complicity in crime would allow a criminal such as he to gain power (no person showing any privilege was safe on the streets).

Corrupted souls do not fight back against injustice. I remember the author speaking of the "lack of political will" for democracy even though it was clearly craved when presented. Yet it stood as a flower before a chainsaw as lusting Russian hearts ripped the jewelry from any who dare display. I hear it even now, those same words: "Lack of political will" when it comes to reeling in the greed and wars that bring us to the brink of self-destruction. America why is your soul so guilty?

CODA: Although I never found the true culprit, I was able to present irrefutable physical evidence James was innocent of the thievery. They fought me like hell but I kept pushing until I threatened to expose their own "lack of honor" to the world. So I got James freed from jail - well, from one jail anyway.